Words warming up the Heart... My Heart

(this would be a waygreater tattoo compared to Hello Kitty one, lol)

We always try to look for something "far", for something we want to hear, and in our mind we almost "plan" about when we want to hear it. We all know what that is, and we really want it, but my question is... what we want to hear, is it really what we need to hear?

I don't think so! And that's what you find out when you get "unexpected" words, lines, conversations coming up your way.

Everyone of us has a precise idea of oneself, but does that meet up what others think of us? When it does, or when what others think is more than we expect, that's the moment when we should realise our real self has met reality AND/OR that someone can see right through us and can read the way we are in depth, in that part we may try to hide or to show cuz that makes us feel better.

It happened to me...

For a long time I've shown just a part of my true self, the part I thought was better tho show because of people around me or situations, then for another long time I've just kept running from myself and eventually, after a harsh climb I just got to a point where I learned to trust and accept the whole of my being and I've started showing, finally, my WHOLE self. It turned out to be that greatest thing ever and the thing making me feel at my best, I was not (and I'm not still) afraid of shining, or of showing what I'm feeling on a day or on another. Shining... that's what I learned. No matter who you are, no matter how you feel, how you look like, how you react, how you talk, which family you belong, which place you come from, everyone of us can shine and has the right to shine, and gotta shine with no fear! If we get into this habit, into this routine of smiling, which is actually the first step to a "shiner" us, then it will get easier and easier, nicer and nicer.
My experience taught me that its nor hard once you start it off with using a right key and even taught me that others perfectly feel and see that we have a light all around us and that our true self is coming out. They feel the change and they help us to see the change.

This all "intro" (lol sorry, I know I can be sooo boring with loooong speeches!!!) leads me to the point of this blog: when you're able to expose yourself, even for a little time, and maybe with just a person or two, then you can get the best ever when is unexpected and unexpected things are the best things ever.
Lately I've experienced some of the greatest moments and feelings of the last few years, moments and feelings which are sincere, real, true, with unconditional affection and unplanned paths to walk on.

Last night a friend of mine, THE friend of mine, who you all know now as Steph, warmed up my heart (like she's doing more and more often lately) with maybe one of the silliest (at least from an outer view) things ever.
Out of a game, a joke, she spoke the truth, and her truth hit me straight up in the face with something I couldn't expect. She said, somehow, that I can be able to bring "light and warmth in the most grey and cold lives".

Is that for real? Do I?! Such of a simple line shaking up everything in me and warming my heart up (little note: I'm not the only one who can then bring some light and warmth then, huh? ;) you know what I'm saying) opened up my eyes making me think that being myself, showing my sunny side is what shakes people, what helps (maybe) people, what people like bout me, way better than my dark side. Is it? Somehow I guess it is.
A good discovery for myself, but the best and warmest words coming from such an important person.

Pure happiness and positive feelings. That's all I want to let in my life right now and if what I'm getting, goes back to others, then it's even better because it means it has a great power and a good meaning and especially means that this people are close enough to see it, to see me all.

All of this blog may sound like an "ego trip", looks like I'm speaking about myself all the time, thats not the aim, what I'm saying is... once again thanks, thanks for all I'm finding out, thanks to Steph for being that close to me and thanks for being such an amazing "sister" walking side by side with me along this loooooooong path of life, which suddenly feels fun to run.
I never thought I could find this all.

Words, simple words, little actions, that what warms up days and lives. There' s no need to make a great deed to achieve a great result or to touch somebody's heart. It all lies within the less important (apparently) things. What we want can be blown up by a fresh wind and can be replaced by what our inner self, our heart or soul needs, without us even knowing it!

She caught me by surprise and she gave me a beautiful gift. She showed me I changed and learned something, for real.

But in return, I feel I want to give her something as well, she knows it already, cuz I alraedy told her, but I'll make it once again clear and official... a little truth: you can light up people's lives as well. Different ways, different methods, different light, but you do give light.
And even with just your smile you can make others smile, can make others love the wonderful one you are.
Moon & Sun... perfectly describing it once again.
So... all I'm telling you is...:

"Don't be afraid of shining and keep shining on" ...cuz you know you can! (I mean... you're doing it!!!)

...And let's take it off together to new adventures!!!

"Here comes The Sun... do do do do" ;)

Thanks for everything!

Love,

CipCharlie (hihihihihihihihihihi)