Monday, September 13, 2010

Rohan... one of my dearest friends ever




In my previous post I talked about my "far friends" which are closer to me. Well! I named a special friend who I didn't talk about in that blog, that friend is Rohan!

Rohan is one of my dearest and closest friends I've ever had! He lives in Leeds, which makes him another "far-yet-close" friend, and I'm happy I found him! It started all off when Sian introduced me this guy who was on MySpace. I added him as friend, and few months later Sian put us in the same MSN conversation, that's how we started to talk!
What impressed me the most about Rohan was that he is such a good guy, like one of those that are hard to find! He's honest, real, good, cute and most of all, he knows how to be a great good friend.

He's sensitive, very sensitive, and he has a kind of "artist' soul". He can draw and he can create many things. Thats what I like about him! At times he has that still-child-feel, but that's what makes him one of the best and purest people I've ever meet!
When we started to chat he had some troubles and I tried to help him and I just loved chatting with him! I've always felt he was a cool person!

Our chats could last for hours and me and him could talk about everything! EVERYTHING! Serious matters and less serious ones, funny stuff and silly stuff, games, aliens, history, whatever!

He's always been like an older brother to me.

We still talk and what impresses me is that after 4 years he's still like that older brother caring from me. At times I see he'd like to protect me and save me from anything that's bad in the world and I always feel like I have a cool person standing on my side no matter what! He was there for me when I needed it and he was there for me when I broke up with my bf, when my friends were gone, when I had no one to talk to! He was always there no matter what! Once again, he still is!

I'm happy I can chat with him like few times a week, he supports me in my projects and he makes me feel like I have good things to share, which is important to me. All of my friends who got the chance to speak to him say he's a great guy! And actually all of my friends here heard me talking bout "Rohan, my friend from Leeds".

When I'm feeling a little bit low, he's there to cheer me up and the most amazing this is he does that by just talking bout whatever, bout something popping into his mind, and I simply forget how bad I'm feeling!

Yes, one again a far friend is someone that is this close to me! I don't know if I'll ever meet him face to face, I hope so! But no matter what, I know I'll always keep contacts with him, cuz he's a real special person. Period.

So, all I want to say is, thanks alot Rohan for always being there for me whenever I need it, even without knowing it! And I do hope I can help and be likewise with you, cuz you're one of my dearest friends I have and one of the people I care the most about!

Thanks for everything!!!!!!!

Much Love

Mary
xXx

My far friends... close to my heart





Hi everyone…
The other day I was just sitting, thinking bout people around me and people I care about or that care about me. I’ve always talked about my friends on here, bout those beautiful girls who are always by my side, keeping me company and making me happy when meeting them at university, at home, in the street, wherever, because we get the chance to be happy everywhere with whatever we do.
But I got to think that actually I have other close friends, even if they’re far away from me. Many of them are just people that I met somewhere or met online and that are part of my life for short or long seasons. But even though the distance kept and keep us apart, I have a special relationship with each, or better some of them.
That’s what I’d love to speak my mind about in today’s blog: my far-yet-close friends.

I met some of them like 5 or 4 years ago, that’s the case of Sian, Ele, Babs, Sophie. And Rohan, too (but I’m gonna talk about him later in another speacial post!).

Sian was the first girl I met online. She’s from the UK. I still remember how I got on the Abs Breen’ forum and she helped me out with it, because I really didn’t know from where to start! Then I asked her to draw for me an avatar and some candydolls for me and my friend. She was very nice from the beginning, and I was totally amazed by how lovely she was with me. We started PMing each other, then we got to mails and then on MSN. I always had a good time chatting with her, and she’s one of the nicest, down to earth people, I’ve ever met! She’s just so friendly and I really got to love chatting with her, and when I did I felt like so close to her, like we were in the same room. The face that impressed me the most was that she was always ready to ask “what’s up, hun?”, showing she cared about me and every time I had troubles, she was there to listen, maybe give an advice and try to help the way she could. When she had troubles, I tried to do the same, I don’t know if I could really be helpful, but when I found out she had serious health problem, that totally killed me; I wanted to help her and I was very worried about her, and yet I didn’t know what to do, she couldn’t be online and I didn’t know step by step what was going on. I could only pray for her to get better. Luckily things turned out in the right way and I was very happy! Throughout the years I spent some time off the Internet, too, so for about a year or more, I didn’t have the chance to really speak to her, but we mailed each other trying to keep contact the best way we could. We did keep contact, and 5 years later, we still talk and just have fun chatting if we get the chance. Really love her! When she sent me a little present earlier this year, I was sooooo impressed! It was the first time and she just gave me someone I loved! She didn’t know I loved fairies, but she bought a lovely necklace with a fairy and a star and that was so lovely from her and I really loved the present! It’s fun when a person so far from you, knows you this way. I’m happy I found her and I’m happy I still have her around to chat to.




The second girl I met online that still means a lot to me is Elena, or Ele, as I call her (well used to call her Elenina as well, but that drove her crazy LOL, sorry!). She’s Italian and she lives opposite of where I live, and believe it or not, we never got the chance to meet! I don’t exactly recall how it happened that me and Ele got to exchange MSN addy or email addy. She was on the Abs forum as well and that’s how we got to meet I guess, but really can’t recall the detail bringing us together! Well it doesn’t really matter, cuz right now she’s like one of my best friends ever! She’s always opened, she’s nice, she’s honest and she always speaks her mind, which I really appreciate in her. She’s got a kind of cool attitude that I like a lot and she’s close to me wherever I needed it. She had to listen to all of my stupid chats when I was stressed cuz of my ex bf, she was there when I was undecided or having troubles with whatever, from school to friends to parents, and she was even there in my hardest time of struggle, when she helped me suggesting me what could help me for real, and I’m happy she did, because that brought me back to the person I was, but even gave me the chance of discovering this new me. Even through distance she was a great helping hand. She and Steph were the ones really taking me out that black deep hole I was in, so I really have to Thank her with all my heart.
What I like about Ele is that can always make me have a laugh but still have a serious conversation with me. But whenever we chat I know we gonna have one of those moments in which we have two different points of you, and we end up laughing by something silly we said (this happens a lot when we talk about men *coughs*).
We share the love for the same music and this even brought us together to be “a team”, in fact when she put up a board about R&B music, she asked me to help her out with it, and we got in it together. At times I was not able to be there, but she always understood and always kept this “partnership” with me. She made up a site and I got to be part of it as well. And if right now I’m co-hosting a radio show, even if for just about half hour, it’s because of her and because of these ideas of being online that she had, because if it wasn’t for the site, I would not be able to live such a cool experience.
We exchanged some cards, presents, and everytime I loved the things she gave me, cuz once again looked like she perfectly knew what I loved or what I wanted it! How cool is that?
We may be soooo different but still we get on well together and I like it. Right now I couldn’t imagine not texting her from time to time or not telling her things going on, or chatting with her in what-so-ever way is possible!
A great friend for real!




Another important one for me is Barbara, or better Babs, my friend from Belgium. She’s one of the dearest people I’ve ever met. She’s extremely sensitive, and that’s one of the things that most got my attention. I met her in the same way I’ve met others, and we just had a great feeling from the first moment. I was always happy when talking to her. We have a lot in common and she’s the one I’ve always talked with no limits since the first moment! You know, usually takes some time to get to know someone and open yourself up with the other person, but with her I didn’t have to wait or anything, she was there talking straight and I did the same. I really wanted to meet her and it happened! That’s something I’ll never forget! It happened when I was in Holland to visit my right-now-ex boyfriend, it’s one of the funniest day I’ve ever had! We decided to meet around Eindovhen to visit a zoo to spend the day together like halfway for both of us, so I was pretty excited throughout the whole trip (even cuz it was great to have this road trip with my guy, trying to get to the place on time and stuff) and I remember how happy I was when we got around the zoo and I saw this car behind us, with a Belgium plate and so I thought like, “ok, that’s them”. So when I was sure it was Babs with her boyfriend, while still driving, I got out my window and yelled and waved! I was soooo glad to see it was her! She was shy, she is a shy person when first meeting her I guess, so she spoke softly, and nicely, but she was damn cute and lovely! We started our trip throughout the zoo and it was nice, I don’t really love zoos cuz those poor animals are in cages in all, but here, some were free, and eventually it just had to be a place to meet with this great girl. We chatted, laughed, talked, got to know each other better and our boyfriends did too. She already knew my boy but you know, it’s always different. We took pictures and we had a great time I believe! I was sad to say bye, but she’s invited me to go over her house whenever I had the chance to be back in Holland. I haven’t visited Belgium yet, tho I’d love to do it and I’d love to see her again by then! I haven’t talked to her in almost a year now… once again troubles got me outta the internet and we mailed 2 or 3 times, but she had troubles too with her internet and MSN, so we didn’t get the chance to speak. I sent her a couple of cards and postcards, she didn’t reply or tell me she got it, so I don’t know what’s up with her now, but I’d love to hear from her now. I miss those chats with her. Just hope she’s fine and she’s happy.




Last, but not least, it’s Sophie. Sophie was the second one I met after Sian. She used to speak with my boyfriend, they were friends before we got friends. Then we got to exchange mails and stuff ourselves and we started speaking. Kind of same age, same problems, same fears, same experiences, kind of similar dreams, so we could share a lot, and she was the one who witnessed my getting together with J. She was there to advice me and help me with saying yes or no. Hehehe. I should thank her partially for having had that love relationship. We used to chat a lot as well, like daily, for hours. We had our “girls’ nights” on Saturdays or on nights we were up late talking about silly things, boys, or whatever popped into our minds. Somehow I lost contacts with her on a moment; we all get busy at a certain point and you know, we grow up and things like that, but it’s like we both kept each other in each other’s hearts! We didn’t forget the good times and everything. After I broke up with my boyfriend I thought she was kind of ‘on his side’ and I thought probably it was no good to chat with her again, although I really wanted it! One day, quite by chance I’ve decided to write her a mail and guess what? We got to talk MUCH again, through mails, cuz that’s easier when we’re busy, but even through MSN and things never changed! We both thought like one didn’t want to talk to the other, but we were really wrong, and I’m happy we got in contact again! She’s a real good good friend, she’s a good girl, one of those girls that are not easy to find around, and she’s very mature, that’s what makes me feel always comfortable when speaking with her. We can really advice each other in a natural way and we know what the other is thinking actually or anyway we can understand what the other feels. That’s all that needs to be said to understand how much I care and how much I love to have her as a “far friend” which I feel still close to me.




A little bit later, like 3 years ago or so, I even met other people such as Deanna;
She is a great person and someone who I feel like an older sister. Time difference and big distance, since she lives in the USA, didn’t make it too easy to chat or whatever, but she’s a person I really care about. I’ve always wanted to be there for her when she needed it, I don’t know if I actually did it, and if she ever felt I was supporting her, but I hope she did, cuz I tried my best. I can say anyway that she was there to listen to me when I needed a word or two, so I thank her!
Jezz, is from Holland, and I’ve always wanted to visit her, but it was never possible for a reason or another, but she’s another good girl who always acted like a great pal to me. We share a common dream and we like the same things, so it’s easy to understand why I could get along with her that good. Hope I’ll be able to go up to Holland again and meet her one day.
Ashley was a crazy gal, haven’t heard from her in a long long time, God bless her for how crazy she was and for how many times she made me have a laugh or going totally crazy. She was a sensitive one as well. A good girl like all the others.




Eventually if I think about it, I’ve got to know a lot of people throughout these years online and they were all great and it’s hard to name them all! I remember tho Annika from Finland, for example, who I’ll never forget! She was a great great friend and I really loved chatting with her, it was like always laughing, never being serious, although we were able to speak about serious stuff as well, and it was just nice! We kept contacts much through mail after she moved to her university flat, but one day I couldn’t send her mails anymore, somehow, because of the address, and I never heard about her anymore, but I can’t forget how funny and nice she was!
So you see, I’ve had these people in my life, for short or long seasons and with some, the most of them, I still keep on chatting or at least from time to time I hear from them and it makes me happy, cuz whenever I needed it they always proved they were there for me and I do hope I could do the same with them!
And this all through big or short distances!!!




I still keep on meeting people and one of the last people who really got into my heart it Paola, she’s Italian, and not even that far from me, and she’s like a younger sister to me. We simply got on well from the first moment and the feeling and the connection was great, with no many words. We text daily, we speak weekly or so, we chat online whenever it’s possible; it’s just great! She’s a really amazing little woman and she’s a strong girl and I really love her. I wish I had around like everyday, it’d fill my heart with much joy and I wish she could meet my friends here and she could go out with me and stuff like that; she laughs a lot when I tell her what’s up with me or when I tell her one of those funny silly things I do that could make everyone laugh actually. She says I could shoot a movie or write a long book based on my stories, LOL. She’s even one of the first reading those stuff I write, and she’s a fan, haha. I really hope to go visiting her this year or next summer, I’ve never been to Sicily and so I think it’s time to go there! I wish I could have around on one of my birthdays or for a party or whatever, would be cool, and I really hope it’s gonna happen as soon as possible!




I keep on meeting interesting people and that’s what I love the most about being on the Internet! I share my hobbies and passions with others, I get good chances (thanks Michele and thanks Haris) and I simply have some fun by sharing with other freaks things not many people know (thanks to the ‘chicks for all those Apparatjik stuff).
I’ve learned things from each of them. I care much about them and I know how much they meant to me throughout these years, even when suddenly looked like I had no one around!
Thanks for everything to each of you and I really hope I’ll hear from you like… all my life!!!
And I hope that I’ll even meet you all sooner or later, it’d be a great thing after so many years.

Love to you all,
Mary,
xXx

Ps. I couldn’t speak about all those wonderful people I met, but even if I didn’t speak about them, I didn’t name them, doesn’t mean they were not “someone I was happy to meet”, cuz they were! Everyone left a mark on my path, and I’m just happy they did.