"How To Make A Better World - Project": new section and page!

Hello folks!

I'm here to tell you about a new "home made" project I decided to start just to bring the all of us, from all around the world, closer!

For now this project will have its own page here on my personal blog, but when (and if) it's going to get big enough it will have its own blog-site.
The name of the project is "How To Make A Better World", and to get to know everything about it, all you need to do is to click here to get to the new section and read everything about this new idea!

Thanks alot!

Mary,
xXx

Rohan... one of my dearest friends ever

In my previous post I talked about my "far friends" which are closer to me. Well! I named a special friend who I didn't talk about in that blog, that friend is Rohan!

Rohan is one of my dearest and closest friends I've ever had! He lives in Leeds, which makes him another "far-yet-close" friend, and I'm happy I found him! It started all off when Sian introduced me this guy who was on MySpace. I added him as friend, and few months later Sian put us in the same MSN conversation, that's how we started to talk!
What impressed me the most about Rohan was that he is such a good guy, like one of those that are hard to find! He's honest, real, good, cute and most of all, he knows how to be a great good friend.

He's sensitive, very sensitive, and he has a kind of "artist' soul". He can draw and he can create many things. Thats what I like about him! At times he has that still-child-feel, but that's what makes him one of the best and purest people I've ever meet!
When we started to chat he had some troubles and I tried to help him and I just loved chatting with him! I've always felt he was a cool person!

Our chats could last for hours and me and him could talk about everything! EVERYTHING! Serious matters and less serious ones, funny stuff and silly stuff, games, aliens, history, whatever!

He's always been like an older brother to me.

We still talk and what impresses me is that after 4 years he's still like that older brother caring from me. At times I see he'd like to protect me and save me from anything that's bad in the world and I always feel like I have a cool person standing on my side no matter what! He was there for me when I needed it and he was there for me when I broke up with my bf, when my friends were gone, when I had no one to talk to! He was always there no matter what! Once again, he still is!

I'm happy I can chat with him like few times a week, he supports me in my projects and he makes me feel like I have good things to share, which is important to me. All of my friends who got the chance to speak to him say he's a great guy! And actually all of my friends here heard me talking bout "Rohan, my friend from Leeds".

When I'm feeling a little bit low, he's there to cheer me up and the most amazing this is he does that by just talking bout whatever, bout something popping into his mind, and I simply forget how bad I'm feeling!

Yes, one again a far friend is someone that is this close to me! I don't know if I'll ever meet him face to face, I hope so! But no matter what, I know I'll always keep contacts with him, cuz he's a real special person. Period.

So, all I want to say is, thanks alot Rohan for always being there for me whenever I need it, even without knowing it! And I do hope I can help and be likewise with you, cuz you're one of my dearest friends I have and one of the people I care the most about!

Thanks for everything!!!!!!!

Much Love

Mary
xXx

My far friends... close to my heart

Hi everyone…
The other day I was just sitting, thinking bout people around me and people I care about or that care about me. I’ve always talked about my friends on here, bout those beautiful girls who are always by my side, keeping me company and making me happy when meeting them at university, at home, in the street, wherever, because we get the chance to be happy everywhere with whatever we do.
But I got to think that actually I have other close friends, even if they’re far away from me. Many of them are just people that I met somewhere or met online and that are part of my life for short or long seasons. But even though the distance kept and keep us apart, I have a special relationship with each, or better some of them.
That’s what I’d love to speak my mind about in today’s blog: my far-yet-close friends.

I met some of them like 5 or 4 years ago, that’s the case of Sian, Ele, Babs, Sophie. And Rohan, too (but I’m gonna talk about him later in another speacial post!).

Sian was the first girl I met online. She’s from the UK. I still remember how I got on the Abs Breen’ forum and she helped me out with it, because I really didn’t know from where to start! Then I asked her to draw for me an avatar and some candydolls for me and my friend. She was very nice from the beginning, and I was totally amazed by how lovely she was with me. We started PMing each other, then we got to mails and then on MSN. I always had a good time chatting with her, and she’s one of the nicest, down to earth people, I’ve ever met! She’s just so friendly and I really got to love chatting with her, and when I did I felt like so close to her, like we were in the same room. The face that impressed me the most was that she was always ready to ask “what’s up, hun?”, showing she cared about me and every time I had troubles, she was there to listen, maybe give an advice and try to help the way she could. When she had troubles, I tried to do the same, I don’t know if I could really be helpful, but when I found out she had serious health problem, that totally killed me; I wanted to help her and I was very worried about her, and yet I didn’t know what to do, she couldn’t be online and I didn’t know step by step what was going on. I could only pray for her to get better. Luckily things turned out in the right way and I was very happy! Throughout the years I spent some time off the Internet, too, so for about a year or more, I didn’t have the chance to really speak to her, but we mailed each other trying to keep contact the best way we could. We did keep contact, and 5 years later, we still talk and just have fun chatting if we get the chance. Really love her! When she sent me a little present earlier this year, I was sooooo impressed! It was the first time and she just gave me someone I loved! She didn’t know I loved fairies, but she bought a lovely necklace with a fairy and a star and that was so lovely from her and I really loved the present! It’s fun when a person so far from you, knows you this way. I’m happy I found her and I’m happy I still have her around to chat to.

The second girl I met online that still means a lot to me is Elena, or Ele, as I call her (well used to call her Elenina as well, but that drove her crazy LOL, sorry!). She’s Italian and she lives opposite of where I live, and believe it or not, we never got the chance to meet! I don’t exactly recall how it happened that me and Ele got to exchange MSN addy or email addy. She was on the Abs forum as well and that’s how we got to meet I guess, but really can’t recall the detail bringing us together! Well it doesn’t really matter, cuz right now she’s like one of my best friends ever! She’s always opened, she’s nice, she’s honest and she always speaks her mind, which I really appreciate in her. She’s got a kind of cool attitude that I like a lot and she’s close to me wherever I needed it. She had to listen to all of my stupid chats when I was stressed cuz of my ex bf, she was there when I was undecided or having troubles with whatever, from school to friends to parents, and she was even there in my hardest time of struggle, when she helped me suggesting me what could help me for real, and I’m happy she did, because that brought me back to the person I was, but even gave me the chance of discovering this new me. Even through distance she was a great helping hand. She and Steph were the ones really taking me out that black deep hole I was in, so I really have to Thank her with all my heart.
What I like about Ele is that can always make me have a laugh but still have a serious conversation with me. But whenever we chat I know we gonna have one of those moments in which we have two different points of you, and we end up laughing by something silly we said (this happens a lot when we talk about men *coughs*).
We share the love for the same music and this even brought us together to be “a team”, in fact when she put up a board about R&B music, she asked me to help her out with it, and we got in it together. At times I was not able to be there, but she always understood and always kept this “partnership” with me. She made up a site and I got to be part of it as well. And if right now I’m co-hosting a radio show, even if for just about half hour, it’s because of her and because of these ideas of being online that she had, because if it wasn’t for the site, I would not be able to live such a cool experience.
We exchanged some cards, presents, and everytime I loved the things she gave me, cuz once again looked like she perfectly knew what I loved or what I wanted it! How cool is that?
We may be soooo different but still we get on well together and I like it. Right now I couldn’t imagine not texting her from time to time or not telling her things going on, or chatting with her in what-so-ever way is possible!
A great friend for real!

Another important one for me is Barbara, or better Babs, my friend from Belgium. She’s one of the dearest people I’ve ever met. She’s extremely sensitive, and that’s one of the things that most got my attention. I met her in the same way I’ve met others, and we just had a great feeling from the first moment. I was always happy when talking to her. We have a lot in common and she’s the one I’ve always talked with no limits since the first moment! You know, usually takes some time to get to know someone and open yourself up with the other person, but with her I didn’t have to wait or anything, she was there talking straight and I did the same. I really wanted to meet her and it happened! That’s something I’ll never forget! It happened when I was in Holland to visit my right-now-ex boyfriend, it’s one of the funniest day I’ve ever had! We decided to meet around Eindovhen to visit a zoo to spend the day together like halfway for both of us, so I was pretty excited throughout the whole trip (even cuz it was great to have this road trip with my guy, trying to get to the place on time and stuff) and I remember how happy I was when we got around the zoo and I saw this car behind us, with a Belgium plate and so I thought like, “ok, that’s them”. So when I was sure it was Babs with her boyfriend, while still driving, I got out my window and yelled and waved! I was soooo glad to see it was her! She was shy, she is a shy person when first meeting her I guess, so she spoke softly, and nicely, but she was damn cute and lovely! We started our trip throughout the zoo and it was nice, I don’t really love zoos cuz those poor animals are in cages in all, but here, some were free, and eventually it just had to be a place to meet with this great girl. We chatted, laughed, talked, got to know each other better and our boyfriends did too. She already knew my boy but you know, it’s always different. We took pictures and we had a great time I believe! I was sad to say bye, but she’s invited me to go over her house whenever I had the chance to be back in Holland. I haven’t visited Belgium yet, tho I’d love to do it and I’d love to see her again by then! I haven’t talked to her in almost a year now… once again troubles got me outta the internet and we mailed 2 or 3 times, but she had troubles too with her internet and MSN, so we didn’t get the chance to speak. I sent her a couple of cards and postcards, she didn’t reply or tell me she got it, so I don’t know what’s up with her now, but I’d love to hear from her now. I miss those chats with her. Just hope she’s fine and she’s happy.

Last, but not least, it’s Sophie. Sophie was the second one I met after Sian. She used to speak with my boyfriend, they were friends before we got friends. Then we got to exchange mails and stuff ourselves and we started speaking. Kind of same age, same problems, same fears, same experiences, kind of similar dreams, so we could share a lot, and she was the one who witnessed my getting together with J. She was there to advice me and help me with saying yes or no. Hehehe. I should thank her partially for having had that love relationship. We used to chat a lot as well, like daily, for hours. We had our “girls’ nights” on Saturdays or on nights we were up late talking about silly things, boys, or whatever popped into our minds. Somehow I lost contacts with her on a moment; we all get busy at a certain point and you know, we grow up and things like that, but it’s like we both kept each other in each other’s hearts! We didn’t forget the good times and everything. After I broke up with my boyfriend I thought she was kind of ‘on his side’ and I thought probably it was no good to chat with her again, although I really wanted it! One day, quite by chance I’ve decided to write her a mail and guess what? We got to talk MUCH again, through mails, cuz that’s easier when we’re busy, but even through MSN and things never changed! We both thought like one didn’t want to talk to the other, but we were really wrong, and I’m happy we got in contact again! She’s a real good good friend, she’s a good girl, one of those girls that are not easy to find around, and she’s very mature, that’s what makes me feel always comfortable when speaking with her. We can really advice each other in a natural way and we know what the other is thinking actually or anyway we can understand what the other feels. That’s all that needs to be said to understand how much I care and how much I love to have her as a “far friend” which I feel still close to me.

A little bit later, like 3 years ago or so, I even met other people such as Deanna;
She is a great person and someone who I feel like an older sister. Time difference and big distance, since she lives in the USA, didn’t make it too easy to chat or whatever, but she’s a person I really care about. I’ve always wanted to be there for her when she needed it, I don’t know if I actually did it, and if she ever felt I was supporting her, but I hope she did, cuz I tried my best. I can say anyway that she was there to listen to me when I needed a word or two, so I thank her!
Jezz, is from Holland, and I’ve always wanted to visit her, but it was never possible for a reason or another, but she’s another good girl who always acted like a great pal to me. We share a common dream and we like the same things, so it’s easy to understand why I could get along with her that good. Hope I’ll be able to go up to Holland again and meet her one day.
Ashley was a crazy gal, haven’t heard from her in a long long time, God bless her for how crazy she was and for how many times she made me have a laugh or going totally crazy. She was a sensitive one as well. A good girl like all the others.

Eventually if I think about it, I’ve got to know a lot of people throughout these years online and they were all great and it’s hard to name them all! I remember tho Annika from Finland, for example, who I’ll never forget! She was a great great friend and I really loved chatting with her, it was like always laughing, never being serious, although we were able to speak about serious stuff as well, and it was just nice! We kept contacts much through mail after she moved to her university flat, but one day I couldn’t send her mails anymore, somehow, because of the address, and I never heard about her anymore, but I can’t forget how funny and nice she was!
So you see, I’ve had these people in my life, for short or long seasons and with some, the most of them, I still keep on chatting or at least from time to time I hear from them and it makes me happy, cuz whenever I needed it they always proved they were there for me and I do hope I could do the same with them!
And this all through big or short distances!!!

I still keep on meeting people and one of the last people who really got into my heart it Paola, she’s Italian, and not even that far from me, and she’s like a younger sister to me. We simply got on well from the first moment and the feeling and the connection was great, with no many words. We text daily, we speak weekly or so, we chat online whenever it’s possible; it’s just great! She’s a really amazing little woman and she’s a strong girl and I really love her. I wish I had around like everyday, it’d fill my heart with much joy and I wish she could meet my friends here and she could go out with me and stuff like that; she laughs a lot when I tell her what’s up with me or when I tell her one of those funny silly things I do that could make everyone laugh actually. She says I could shoot a movie or write a long book based on my stories, LOL. She’s even one of the first reading those stuff I write, and she’s a fan, haha. I really hope to go visiting her this year or next summer, I’ve never been to Sicily and so I think it’s time to go there! I wish I could have around on one of my birthdays or for a party or whatever, would be cool, and I really hope it’s gonna happen as soon as possible!

I keep on meeting interesting people and that’s what I love the most about being on the Internet! I share my hobbies and passions with others, I get good chances (thanks Michele and thanks Haris) and I simply have some fun by sharing with other freaks things not many people know (thanks to the ‘chicks for all those Apparatjik stuff).
I’ve learned things from each of them. I care much about them and I know how much they meant to me throughout these years, even when suddenly looked like I had no one around!
Thanks for everything to each of you and I really hope I’ll hear from you like… all my life!!!
And I hope that I’ll even meet you all sooner or later, it’d be a great thing after so many years.

Love to you all,
Mary,
xXx

Ps. I couldn’t speak about all those wonderful people I met, but even if I didn’t speak about them, I didn’t name them, doesn’t mean they were not “someone I was happy to meet”, cuz they were! Everyone left a mark on my path, and I’m just happy they did.

London - My Days Over There

One month ago I was getting ready to leave for my vacation, to reach London.
It had to be a vacation to relax, to enjoy some time with my friends, it had to be music-related and had to be just for us.

3 weeks ago I was back from this lovely City, which I feel is my City and I didn't really have time to post something about the days there. Actually I've been pretty sad about being back home and I wasn't that ready to go through the whole journey yet, but I think now I am and I'm going to share with you all my experience over there, which was A-MA-ZING for me!


So take your time to read if you want to, sit back and enjoy this journey with me; here it is:

Day 1 - July, 29th



15:10 (Italy) our flight was ready to leave. It was me, Steph, Chrissy and Frankie: 4 girls ready to get London and have some fun over there all together.

We were veeeeeeery excited about our vacation and we couldn't wait to be there! It was Chrissy's first time on a plane, so we had to hold hands and tell her not to worry and stuff!
The fun started right away tho! We love laughing, having fun, acting crazy, making jokes and things like that, so the whole trip to get there (we had a stop in Milan, so 2 flights before getting to the UK) was already hilarious and full of nice moments! I was totally excited and all I wanted was to step again on London ground, feeling home and feeling free again.

19:00 (UK) we were there, half hour later than scheduled, but it didn't really matter! We were happy to be there. After a full hour in the underground we got to Kings Cross & St. Pancras Station, where our B&B was: me & Steph were there last year as well, so it was good to us to see all over again the same places and faces we saw last year! We knew where to go, what to do and it felt like a good coming back. We were tired tho, and all we wanted to do was to put our suitcases in our rooms and to go for a meal somewhere (that had to be Burger King of course LOL) and that's what we did.

Our first evening there was just easy and short, to be ready and rested for the upcoming days and well, flights and airports (and big big luggages) made us tired, so we were glad to be able to simply lay and catch some rest after a chat and check out of our windows making comments, taking pictures and making those typical girls noises *squeeeeeeeeeeee* hihihihihi.


Day 2 - July, 30th

So our real first day in London started! I'll try not to give a step by step description of the day, but I'm going to put down just the highlight...or at least I'll try! (I perfectly know that the experience makes me go crazy and makes me wanna tell each detail of what we did!)

We decided to go for those typical sightseeings which are famous in London. Of course if we decide to visit London it's a must to check out some of its famous places!
We went to Buckingham Palace and saw the Change Of Guard (it was my second time and that got me bit bored honestly), then we walked by the Houses Of Parliament, the Big Ben, Westminster Abbey. We spent some time in St. James' Park and in Green Park, where we laid on the field, to enjoy some sun and have a little break with some food and music:







We took some pictures with London's symbols:

(We stopped a lovely and funny guy coming from South Africa but living in London, to take this picture, we had a laugh all together and he was very nice with the all of us! Thanks alot, stranger!)

And we were amazed by how lovely these parks always look

(I look as silly as ever!)

After that we decided to have a quick peep into the National Gallery, so I had the chance to see once again one of my fave paintings: the Sunflowers - Van Gogh.
Unfortunately we had to walk quite fast through the gallery, because one of us was not feeling that well and she wanted to go back to the hotel. But I was happy anyway to be there for some time. I love art and being at the National Gallery feels great!
Trafalgar Square was then our last stop of the day! We spent some time watching around, taking pictures, climbing on the Lions, looking around the square.

As I said it was the second time Steph and I were there, but it was a good good feeling to be back again and see everything once more!


Day 3 - July, 31st

Now, you need to know that I had this "incompleted mission" from last year... I wanted to find the Blue Door from the movie Notting Hill, which I love cuz Hugh Grant is one of my faves! But last year a bee ruined my mission and after a crazy moment panicking, we had to go back to the hotel! But this time I was determined to finish what I started one year ago! So we decided to go to Notting Hill area, so we could check out Portobello Market as well while looking for the Door.

I really liked how Portobello Road and Market look like! It's all sooooooooo colorfull, full of life, of people, of artists and such! It's something you can't dislike, even if you hate markets and markets full of people walking all around (that's really my case!), but if you love all those old antiquate stuff, old books and vynils and you simply love to enjoy buskers playing here and there, you'll love it!!!

We walked through the half of the market... (which is veeeeeeeery looong!)

(I can't remember the name of these guys, they were veeeeeeery good! I'll check out videos I shot and see if I recorded the moment they were talking bout their MySpace page!)

...and finally we arrived at the Blue Door spot! Of course the house is not in use at the moment, and the color blue is not there anymore, hehehe, it turned into a black door with white colums!

It was nice to be there, althogh I couldn't really enjoy the moment for some reasons, but I was proud I finally completed the mission and still Steph was there with me and my other friends were there as well! It was very nice, that's for sure!

Actually I really like the whole area! Notting Hill is a nice place to live in I guess! It relaxes me, walking around feels good, even when you got no where to go! I like all the shops, the parks, those houses, those cafe's! We had a hot coffee and a milkshake, we sat on a bench watching people passing by, having a break, talking to a stranger, we stopped by Daunt Book; I simply love how the place looks so full of books and with little tables and such, you can simply enjoy the silence, read a page or two while deciding which book you'll purchase and watch all of those shelves full of colored books covers.

However once again one of us was feeling sick, so we had to go back to the hotel, but then Steph and I decided to go for a walk on our own and we decided to go to Saatchi Gallery. We wanted to go there because of a Coldplay-matter: their video In My Place was shot at Saatchi Gallery (just few days later we found that that the Gallery we went to was a new bulding and that the one were Coldplay shot the video, was at the old building!); but we even went there cuz we both love art, and in there you can really find craaaaazy weird things, and some of them are real genious things, others are a bit of banal, silly things making you think they aren't that art-related! But however, being there is amazing!
Shame the Gallery was going to close in like 45 minutes or so, so we simply had a short tour through some rooms, but we knew we were going to be back again! After all, we liked it and enjoyed some time we had in there, but even to get there, in the underground, walking around, stopping by to get some fruit at Tesco to share while being sitting on a step in Piccadilly... these are the moments having a good important meaning in these kind of journeys


Day 4 - August, 1st

What to do on a Sunday in London? Well, if it's summer and it's sunny... you gotta check out some of the nicest fountains in London, have a walk through Hyde Park, check how South Bank is and maybe go for some shopping!

Yep, that's what we did!

We wanted to see Somerset House Fountains and South Bank Fountains. My God they're soooooooooooo nice!!! It's funny to be there, it's funny to walk on and through these fountains, it's nice to be with friends and get wet from that water coming out from everywhere in those water-games... it's defenitely something to do on a summer's day!

As I said this trip had to be music related, rock n roll related, Coldplay related first of all! So to reach South Bank we decided to walk on Waterloo Bridge, which is where you can see Mr. Martin running before the last part of Fix You video. Chris just runs across this bridge, and we simply wanted to have the chance to walk on it while singing and whistling Fix You tune... all of those Coldplay fans out there can feel what I'm saying.

It was good to be on that bridge sharing that moment with my best mate Steph, who loves Coldplay, and who gave me the will of going through this Coldplay-path and everything around it! And that was just the beginning of this amazing experience!

After that we decided to go to Hyde Park! On Sundays there's the Speaker's Corner, and you can enjoy all of those crazy people discussing and expressing their ideas and idelogies! There's still a place for revolutionaries, preachers, prayers and storytellers, and Hyde Park holds them all...and you can even find in there someone from the Free Hugs crew!He is Stuart McElwaine, ambassador for Free Hugs! it's great, and getting a free hug its sooooo good... all we need is Love, right? and if there's someone ready to give some away for free, why shouldnt we take it???



However, all we wanted to do was to enjoy again the park, laying on fields, eating, singing and watching people around us, and that time was simply lovely! Sharing time with friends it's a good good positive thing and my God, we were going crazy singing acappella every kind of song we knew, I bet people around us were simply hating us! Hahaha!


Our day ended up at South Bank. South Bank it's a cool place, we were there in the morning as well because of the fountains and there was a old book market as well, which looked lovely! There are kids showing off with their BMX and skates, you can see a lot of artists and everything looks like a whole new world where lotta people from lotta different places meet! I loved the area and the things in it! But what we had to do over there was a London Eye flight around sunset time... the 4D experience was veeeeeeery nice, it's a new thing and I think it's funny to experience London through a 4D view, it was a good move from the Merlin staff. Of course the itself has something special in it, and being up there, watching London getting lit by those city lights it's kind of magic... you see the dark coming out the light and the colors become a special shade taken from the Nature's palette. Pictures themselves cannot perfectly express what you see with your eyes when you're up there with your friends and especially they cannot express what you feel while you're watching London...

And the last stop for the day was Piccadilly Circus! It looks nice and crowded, once again those lights in the dark make it all and it feels good, altho there are toooooooo many turists around hehehe! We had some time in Trocadero as well, just a quick look around and a stop to buy some candies (damn people, 10£ for candies... I took alot, but that's where my sweet tooth comes out!!! Thanks to Steph who helped me with them, LOL, eating them all by myself would have killed me!), and then we had dinner at Yo! Sushi. That's a nice place to be if you love Japanese food and it was not that bad! I loved the Teriyaki Chicken and some sweet Japanese pancakes with a raspberry sauce....yummy!!!!!! That's something you gotta taste!



A veeeeeeery busy and long day, we were tired, but still happy and once we were back in our rooms, we were still having a good laugh and a chat, and that's the best way to end up a day.

Day 5 - August, 2nd (more pictures for this day will be added later when Frankie will give it to me, cuz we used her camera!)

Well Chris was sick! She caught a bad cold and she had fever! Unfortunately she couldn't go out and we were very sad about leaving her alone! I was worried as well and I didn't really know what to do about it! But in the morning however, Steph, Frankie and I decided to go for a quick look around London and we wanted to look for a pharmacy as well.

We decided to check out the Tower Of London and the Tower Bridge. It was fun to get there to check a bit of London from an higher place and then to simply look around how it used to be when kings, queens, knights and such used to be around those places; it is funny to imagine how life was back in those days and in that area everything can give you an "old vibe", which is not that bad cnsidering how modern London can be if you look then on the other side and see the Gherkin... it's like two sides of the City itself and I think that's how London is: everything can be the opposite of something else and you simply can get amazed by the many contradictions in it.

Before going into a Boots search Steph and I wanted to have another little Coldplay moment... that's why we decided we wanted to look for another Fix You "detail" hehehe, and we looked for the tunnel you can see in the beginning of the video, where Chris Martin sits down before getting up and start walking while singing. It was not that hard to find! We had the time to take a look at the area, the buildings, the expensive hotels in there, the modern offices and the old little houses, I had a loooooooovely smoothie (I must admit in London there are some of the best smoothies around!) and after a little walk we could finally find the tunnel! We had to be sure it was the right one, so even if Frankie doesn't like Coldplay, she helped us checking out details and every little spot of the tunnel comparing it with the video itself we had on our MP3 player, and eventually we found out we were just in the right place! We started walking through it, we sat down to take pictures and then we stood against the whole or so, just trying to be exactly where Mr. Martin was in the video! It was fun and nice to do... once again, if you're not a Coldplayer you may not understand what this all means, but I can assure you it's a good thing to do if you're on the steps of your favourite band!

We tried to be fast and be back in Kings Cross to see how Chris was feeling and to be sure about what to say to the doctor at Boots. So we got back to the hotel, Chris was still feeling bad and had high fever. Steph and I decided to go out and check if there was a Boots around the hotel (we thought it was easier to find one around where we were, instead of just looking for another one somewhere else) and we went out lurking around and asking info to find Boots. While we were walking quite fast and in a crazy way cuz we were getting a bit lost cuz of a wrong given information, we had a real funny meeting!
We met Professor Green!!! I think he's a cool one and it was simply nice to meet him while walking in the street! I couldn't help it, but had to stop him and ask him for a picture or something! Of course I did, and we had a brief chat, then I asked him for an autograph and a picture together! He's tall damn, and he was veeeeeeeeeeeeeery sweet and nice to us! Very friendly and easy going. I gave him a kiss as well hihi, on the cheek, of course! hihihi
Now I was quite excited and I blushed as well, so in the picture you'll see below I have a silly face... and it's even dumber the way I'm holding on tight to him! hahahaha, I know I know, but sorry guys, I was very happy I met him! So never mind how stupid I look... but we look like a nice couple, don't we?!! hihi

How lucky I was! hehehe...

However, we found Boots and Chris suddenly felt better after taking what the pharmacist said would help her! We were happy about it, but since she couldn't go out and Frankie wanted to see the British Museum, we thouht we were going to go there... somehow Frankie fell asleep and she was feeling not that good as well, so we thought like: 'KK let's go having some others Coldplay moments around London!'

We got off at first at Euston Square, to reach then Gower Street, where the UCL (London College) is! They all studied there and we took a couple of pictures of us at the entrance of the uni... (my God how I wish I could study in London!); we stopped a guy asking him to take a picture of us... he was a Classics student (just like Chris Martin! funny enough) and he had a bit of that good guy stlye reminding us of Mr. Martin in the beginning.
We got then off at Camden Town and we wanted to look for Jonny Buckland's old apartment, the first one were the lads, as students, used to play as a band, rehearsing and having time together. We had to walk a loooooooooooooooooooong looooooooooooooooong way from the station till the house, but finally we found it (thanks to that Car Gomm thing which led us just to the right house at 100% hihihihihi): it was maybe one of the most emotional moments in the whole trip! We loved to stare at the door, take pictures, look around, sitting on the little wall, checking out the "decoration" outside the house, looking at windows, imagine what they looked at by being outside the house, maybe while smoking a cigarette or simply by being out...I don't know, but that felt good and quite special... and once again I'm happy I could share that with Steph... it was magic for real!
We stood there for some minutes, I think about 15 in total, hehehe, then we got off looking for the Laurel Tree (which was the first pub where Coldplay, still as Starfish had their first gig ever) which is now a sushi bar-restaurant hihihi and then we decided to take a quick peep at the Dublin Castle pub. We didn't go inside actually, we simply took some pictures, lurked in, imagined once again Coldplay and other bands, such as Travis, (and many many others artists have been there performing and sitting in the public) being there and perfoming in and then having a beer or two after the show.

We were having a real good time and loving Camden and before going home we decided to stop at Starbucks for a coffee and a choco cookie (which I loved!!! OMG it tasted sooooo good!) and to use their wireless connection to check some trains timetable hehehe! We had a relaxing time sitting there, thinking bout what to do next day, having a laugh with the guy working there and simply enjoying how things were.
I must admit I totally loved this day we had. It felt good and it was a good day as for friends, for music, for things to see, for feelings, emotions, for people, and everything else!

Day 6 - August, 3rd (more pictures to be added later on when I'll have the all of them on PC!)

Chris was still sick, Frankie was okay, just fine. Steph and I were good as always. The day before we were thinking about leaving or not for Swanage!
Swanage it's around where Coldplay shoot Yellow video, yes, on the beach, and that's where we wanted to go. We needed some time over there, we wanted to clean up the meaning of this song from bad memories and we wanted to have some good time off London's mess, just chilling and seeing a new place, and most of all, we wanted to have this kind of "adventure", really like just jumping on the train, trying to get the right bus, get there and try to understand where we had to go and having this day off.
It costed us some good money, but hey, it was damn worthy (right, Steph? ;) ) and we loved it!

We got up in the early morning, got to Waterloo train station and bought a ticket to Weymouth, which was going to take us to Wareham.
Our train trip lasted 2 hours and a half and it was not that bad, we always have fun with little things, some music, chats, silly video shootings and we loved watching the countryside we were passing by... if you go to the UK, mostly you not going to see these kind of things and landscape, so it was a new experience and we loved it. Once we got to Weymouth station we looked for the bus stop: we already knew which bus number was the right one to take to get to Swanage, so we sat down and waited... the bus didn't arrive! it was late, so we got bit worried about what to do and how to do it! Luckily, even if like 20 minutes later, the bus arrived, we paid for our bus ticket and we jumped in, enjoying the ride, those little villages we were going through, that countryside, that view, till we didn't get to our final destination. It took some time, but once in Swanage, we easily found the seaside... wow, the sea... the ocean (oh well, the Channel sea hihi)... it was nice!!! We walked along the whole seaside and it was a long way, but we didn't mind it! We got to a place which could kind look alike the beach from the video; we're not sure it was the right one, even if about 10 years can change alot of things, but eventually we didn't care. We understood later on, while being on the sand, watching the sea, that in this case, the destination didn't really matter to us, because what we were caring about was the whole trip, the journey itself it took to get there and be there, standing on the beach, staring at those waves, despite the cold wind blowing and the many hours it took to travel.
You see, when you're with a special friend, it doesn't really matter where you are, how you get there, what you're doing and why, 'cause when that special friend is standing by you, sharing that moment, sharing your things, your emotions, your feelings, your story, a little moment or a lifetime, that's all that really matters.

After all, we had a good good time, some fun as well, we had a break eating something, we bought a lovely ice cream, we had a long walk, we enjoyed what was going on there and the natural setting we were in; and after that, our trip to go back home started.

It was a lovely day, nothing more to say! I have some rocks from that beach, and I'll keep them as a special memory from that place and that moment.

Day 7 - August, 4th

Finally Chris was better and she could go out again! Frankie was good as well. We were happy that we could finally go out having a day all together!

Our first stop was Camden Market... all those crazy shops, all those crazy stuff, all those music shops full of old vinyls... I totally loved it!!!!!!!! It's soooo fun to walk through those streets!
Camden it's sooo full of colors, big things hanging everywhere, crazy clothes, piercing and tattoos shops.

I got crazy checking around! Hehehe! Weather was not that good, and looked like it was going to rain...
Walking through the whole street, we got to some others Coldplay-spots! We got to Monkey Chews (which is shut down now), which represented an important moment for Chris and Will to talk over the fight they had and to get Will back in the band. It's a shame it is now closed, but it was okay to be just by it and check how things are around it!
After that we decided we wanted to have a check at The Bakery and The Beehive... we didn't want to bother the guys of course, we just wanted to see how their recording studios looked like from the outside and, you know, every Coldplayer who went there, knows that eventually we all hope they may pass by to get it or they get out of those door. Knowing we are just a wall away from them it's a good good feeling, altho it can be like a torture, cuz then you can't meet them anyway hehehe! That's not stalking or anything, just hoping, I can tell you. ^^
It's a big shame that it got to rain!!! Quite heavy rain! But we just waited under a little balcony or whatever it was, with our colorful umbrellas and when the rain stopped we simply walked away... nothing much was going on there and we had to go on with our walk!

We planned a little Beatles-walk! And we couldn't wait! Of course the weather was ruining our plans... it was sunny, but then rained again, sunny and rainy, sunny and rainy, all the time! So we decided to challange the weather and try to go around for our Beatles path... it took a lot of time to look for our first stop: Trident Studios, where Hey Jude was recorded and where Rolling Stones, Queen and many more recorded as well! The studio was in a little little street, it took a while to find it, we were basically walking around it without getting the right turn hehehe, but eventually we did! Oh my God! it was sooooo good to be in front of them! We took some pictures, we read a list of artists who recorded there, which was hung on the window, and we simply looked around thinking how it could be back in the days... my girls were taking pictures in turn and I saw that there was a man sitting at a desk behind the window, sipping on his tea, smiling a little while watching how crazy we were going... I couldn't help it! I knocked on the glass and said something like 'Can I get in?!', he said, 'Of course!' so he stood and I got close to the door, pushed it and got in... my friends didn't really understand at first what was going on, but I told them to get in! Oh my goodness, we were at the entrance of the Trident studios, the TRIDENT Studios people!!! I can't believe it!!! The guy asked me how he could help us, and I said I was just wondering if they still had the piano on which Paul played Hey Jude and if the studio was still in use... he explained the piano was sold and all, but eventually he asked, 'do you want to come in and have a look?'... What should I have said??? I said yes!!! And I can't believe it!!! We got really in the studiooooooo!!!!!!!!! I was sooooooo emotional! I was stepping inside and it was killing me, I was walking with my 3 friends where soooo many great big artists walked! As soon as I got in and watched the pictures on the wall, all things in there, books, discs hanging and stuff, I couldn't help it but got to cry! It totally killed me! My friends couldn't believe it either, and the man briefly told us a couple of things and showed us some pictures and stuff from when the Beatles recorded in there... Oh My God!
Of course it looks different now, there are PC's and stuff, but hey, the feeling of being in there can't be explained, it's a magic thing and I'm sooo happy we got the chance to get in and took a picture as well!
Thanks to that wonderful man who let us in!!!!!!

Unfortunately the rain stopped us from going to the next stop! I got caught in a heavy rain while asking for some info and I got all wet, it was pouring! So we thought of going back to the hotel to change clothes and maybe go out later on again, but then the girls were too tired and annoyed by the rain to go out again... but me and Steph decided to go around Belsize area... we heard that there was a whole area around there full of VIPs houses and that maybe somewhere around there, there was Chris Martin house as well... no stalking, people! it's always the same thing... you may walk around the right place and maybe find yourself in the right moment in that right place.
No luck really, and we found out later on we were in the wrong place for real! But hey, it was just nice to walk around, check the park and all... shame it rained on us once again... the weather hated us that day! We gave up and decided to go back home and while getting there we even had the chance to see a lovely rainbow... rainbows are one of the most beautiful thing you can get from Mother Nature!

Day 8 - August, 5th

Our vacation's coming to an end! Days were simply flying away and we didn't want them to end. However we wanted to enjoy our days to the fullest, and we still had many more things to do!
We decided to go to Hampstead Heath! The best place to get a great view of London, from the highest point, and the place where you can enjoy some time outdoor, enjoying what's surrounding you while you're up there!

We had some good time taking pictures, walking, running, going a little bit crazy! Once again it had a Coldplay meaning for me and Steph! It was where Guy sat on a bench looking at the City during the South Bank show and where Chris did his Irish kick little dance on one of those path cutting the highest hill... And we were there! Walking the same way, sitting on the same bench, watching London living in front of us. It was a beautiful time and I totally felt free! Like my spirit was free, was running wild and was feeling like it was the rightest place to be to be happy! I really loved it!!!

We had a wonderful time in there... was a big shame we had to leave! But however, we moved on to Piccadilly once again to have some shopping!!! I'm not gonna tell you about all shops we've been through, but the best part ever was HMV! We went there for two reasons: 1. I had to make a little interview for my little radio show collaboration; 2. we wanted to buy CD's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course we love lurking around through those shelves full of CDs, I loved chatting with Stuart, one of the guys working there, trying to get info for the show, and then we met this other guy working there, Colin, who was lovely and helped us in every way he could!!! We even took a picture with him...hehehe

Now, tell me... doesn't he look a bit like Fran from Travis? (Steph said so at first, and I think she's perfectly right!!!)

However, after a crazy shop we went to the Hard Rock Cafè! Frankie and Chris had never been there, so it was good to be back there again! I had fun going through those guitars and memorabilia all over again...
And finally took a picture with my fave of those ones, guitar from Oasis:

After that we got through Primrose Hill and Belsize area once again, just to check some more around and we went to Regent's Park... how nice it looked...
Yeah I must admit we all love parks in London!

Day 9 - August, 6th

Well, some sadness was around in the morning, but we did our best to chase it away!
The first thing we wanted to do was to go Abbey Road and Abbey Road Studios! Chris was not feeling that well once again, but she really wanted to see the studios, so we got there with her, the 4 of us!
It's nice to be there and see those place you see on Tv, on Cd's and stuff that are Beatles related, and being there was a good thing for us all!

After this, Chris and Frankie got back to the hotel and Steph and I got for another tour in the HMV store (we totally love it!!!) and then we got wandering around Piccadilly Circus once again... we had a break and stopped at Caffè Concerto for a Tiramisu to share and then we wanted to go and had a couple of hours at the Beehive once again... shall I say it again? No stalking LOL, just trying to get some luck and see Coldplay somewhere... our 2 hours there, sitting on a bench, were anyway a funny way to share some time, some food, a laugh and some good time thinking over things, over our days there, over silly things and stupid in-jokes we got. It was good and we were plannig what to do next!
And what came out? We wanteed to check where Chris Martin house was... hehe! But first we had to have a check to Covent Garden... I love that place! It's soooo typical and funny! Colorful (how many times did I say colorful throughout this blog???) and full of life! I loved it!!!

And our last stop had to be Chris house after another fast peep at the Beehive...
I ain't gonna say much about it... it's kind of scary to be around that place hahaha, feels like you need to be quiet, silent, respecting everything, and we simply walked once up and down, and it was good, was weird actually, and of course we didn't get any luck!
Gonna be luckier next time? I hope so!

Getting back to our fave underground station told us our vacation in London was over... Sad but true!

Our last night in hotel, we had this crazy time of packing, going crazy, making noise and then some good thoughts about the whole trip...

Day 10 - August, 6th

Early morning, real early morning, like 4AM we were outta the hotel... the taxi we waiting for didn't arrive, luckily another one stopped by and we had this crazy run to the airport...

leaving London killed me... I started to cry, and with tears in my eyes I said bye to London, hoping to see it once again very very soon.

All I can say is... it was a great experience on every level, I know I wrote alot and I cannot add anything else I guess... Just I can say I loved it and it was a real special journey on every level, but mostly it was special because of the special people who were there with me!
What I loved where the people I met, the colors, the smells, everything filled me up from head to toes and inspired me on every level, I was thristy and I wanted that all, I wanted to explore and discover, to live and to feel free, and London just fulfilled my needs and my desires...I got back richer, and I do feel richer than ever.

But a real big thanks to those friends who were there with me... Thanks alot!
Thanks to Frankie for being patient and for living up our evenings with funny jokes, imitations, parodies, games and such;
Thanks to Chris for sharing some crazy moments, for playing and singing, for sharing the Rock & Roll moments...and for her special "artistic pictures!"
And a special thanks to Steph for sharing EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF THIS TRIP WITH ME! Love you!

I love you all!!!

And thanks for those who stopped by reading this!!!

xXx
Mary

Finally Her Birthday was here!

Here I go again, folks!

I'm a couple of days late in posting this, but I've been a little bit busy in the last few days (studying, exams and such).

Well then, Happy Belated Birthday to my girl Steph! ^^

I had a blast! I enjoyed the day and I hope she did as much as I did! Her Birthday was on the 25th of May. So just two days ago.

We had an exam in the noon and when we were done with that we had to go to her house for a little party. Well, I wasn't really caring bout that exam, I was more focused on the evening and all.
I was so in a rush and hurry and worried about presents and such that I left my mobiles home and I just realised that when we were almost at the bus stop (20 minutes walking away from my house) and had to go all the way back! I felt soooooooooo bad about it!!! We missed the bus of course, which was the last one of the day and it was bit messy to go home to Steph's house, but at least her dad came to pick us up and we made it!
I had fun, laughed and had a good evening with my lovely girls!

I was veeeeeeeery happy about Steph and about everything around the birthday itself.
She was pretty surprised and shocked by presents we gave her. And that was the part I loved the most!!!! Her face was soooooooo funny to see!!! She was surprised, happy, shocked, even more shocked and it was just a crescendo of emotions and reactions!

After 5 months! I've been working 5 months to get all those things for her and I had to keep the secret and all... well, it wasn't easy!!! But eventually I made it and it was defenitely worthy!!! So that made me very happy!
And then a good night with friends always make you forget anything else!

I think I should post pictures of her with her presents if she allows me!!! Hehehehehe

But had a real good time and then always good to have some time over her house, sleepover and all. We laughed, shared a tear and felt once again closer! Always kills me!

Yes yes, something I was waiting for soooo hard and it came and went exactly the way I expected it, and I'm sure I'll never forget it!

^^

Mary,
xXx

Just by chance...

It’s really amazing to see how things work in life!

Destiny exists, I do believe in it, but we’re in control! That’s for sure... We have one or two or three or more ways to make that destiny coming true, and we decide to take a path and walk it, and that’s how we make our own destiny.

But it is very funny to see how we get chances leading us to that “crossroad” we need to bear.

I feel amused by all I see and I think lately I did a couple of crazy things leading me to some very positive situations that I enjoy and that I like to be in now.

Things may go different than what we expect and maybe happens that "a something" that it's supposed to go in a certain way then goes totally the opposite giving us the greatest time ever!

Happened to me in the last few days and I feel very happy about it. I think life suddenly wanted to shake me up and it did a good job for sure.
Meeting someone new can always bring some fresh air, and when that one is somehow special... that's even better!

I can't totally explian somehow the way that I'm feeling, but I'm really hyper! I feel excited, happy, and filled with energy and eagerness! That's good that's good, that's what I like!
And with this lovely weather making me think of summer... it can't be any better!

Funny how a game or a simple curiousity turns out to be way more than "meets the eye" hehehehehe

Love,

Mary
xXx

Coffee 'n' Tell

After we had the tickets, me and Chris decided to go for a coffee, just having a chat about the moment. We wanted to call Steph but we couldn't! We wanted to tell the whole world we had tickets, we were feeling hyper... and damn, it's true! we're leaving!!!!!!!!

Just feeling purely happy it's something great. And it's good to have people to share this happiness with, andthe three of us make it simply great! and possible!

I don't even feel like eating!

However... me and Chris went for a coffee and we just sat in a cafè, drinking coffee and espressino and we started chatting about London, about how to organise everything and how me and Steph managed everything last year. I even told her how the idea of going to London last summer was born...

and thats how we got to talk about everything, bout last year, I opened up to her and told her everything bout my last year in the blues, with ups and downs, and how I made it through eventually becoming what I am now.
She started to open up as well. She listened to my words, shared my all, and she shared some of her feelings. We got to know bits of each other we probably couldn't totally expect.

I loved chatting with her, and we spent almost two hours just talking bout everything, bout ourselves, bout life, things, events changing us and we felt a good connection. She's a lovely girl and she's a little star as well... once again I found someone who can shine soo brightly, and wow, once again she's by my side.

I told her things that no-one knows apart from Steph, and I think she did likewise, which I suppose brought us closer and to another level.

People wouldn't believe that a ticket to London can make up the all of this... but I know this is just the beginning, a little start. A step to bring me and her closer, Steph and her closer, me and Steph even closer.

We gonna found out much and much more about each other and I'm sure we'll discover more about ourselves as well... this trip to London is going to help us, and is going to change us, improve us, let us understand and figure out all we can't by now... I'm sure!

And I simply can't wait for it!

I felt sooooo good in being with Chris and I just want to tell her she knows she can rely on me for whatever she needs and whenever she needs someone to talk to!

We can stand by each other and grow old in little things together... you kow you can count on me... and I'm sure, you can count on Steph as well!

Thanks for listening to me! and for sharing part of you, and welcoming part of me.

Loooooooooove you, Chrissy girl!!!

Mary,
xXx

Tickets to London!!!

This morning I woke up pretty early, although last night I went to bed quite late because of me just being on the pc, being lazy; I woke up before my alarm could actually go off... I was feeling a little bit restless in my bed, during my sleep, so I just thought, “ok, I need to get up”.

Opened my window... it was showering and the sky was grey... “oh well, I really need to be in a great mood today to get over this weather”, that’s what I told myself and I headed off to the kitchen. I was not even feeling hungry. So I just sat watching the empty wall in front of me. Then I thought, “ok, need to check my mail”. So I headed back to m room an turned off my laptop, then grabbed it and brought it to the kitchen. So I sat, still with a really sleepy face. I just wanted to check a couple of “answers” I was waiting for with impatience.

Opened my mail inbox... and there it goes! My face lighted up and I swear I was awake by then! Finally the hotel in London replied to our reservation enquiry! They have a free room for us (well , I mean, they had to have it! We’re sooooooo on time!!!!! *lol*) and it’s perfectly right for us and matches what we wanted! I got sooooo thrilled!!! I texted my lovely girls, Steph and Chris and I was excited about the news... it meant that we could go and book for real that ticket to London!

Chris replied as first and she told me she was ready to come as soon as she could borrow her father’s car, so that we could go and pay to get tickets. She was excited as well, and we all thought it was not possible he was going to reply just right before we needed to cancel or confirm our reservation! But he did and we couldn’t believe it! Steph replied later and she said she was happy as well and that she was sure they were going not to disappoint us! So she told me to just go and pay!

I waited for Chris while doing some studying and getting ready!

I can’t really study... I’m sooo excited... and damn, I need to wait 2 months before leaving!!!!!!

My day started off greatly!

I couldn’t have any better news! I even had another reply I was waiting for... *cough cough* and everything started to look brighter!
The sun even came out and the weather feels warmer!
Can’t wait!!!!!!!

Me and Chris headed off to the travel agency and the guy of course remembered us and we confirmed our reservation, paid and just got out of it with the tickets in our hands!!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!! We told Steph and we wanted to call her... we just wanted to tell everyone we had the tickets with us!!!!

Feels lovely and great and I can’t wait for this experience to happen!

Last year was me and Steph, and this time Chris is with us as well, I’m sure is going to be twice better!

Ahhhhhhhh, can’t control myself at the moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to yeeeeeeeell!!!!

I’m very happy!!!!

Love,
Mary
xXx

Decisions

It's late over here and I'm not gonna put up a whole philosophical topic...my brain cannot handle it, but I was just thinking randomly about things when this image came into my mind and I had to find it on the Net... and that's how I started thiking over "decisions".



Our life's made up of decisions. Which way to go? Left or Right? I don't know... the question may sounds so hard and the answer may seem even harder, but you know... I was just sitting here looking at the empty space thinking bout how many stupid decisions I need to take in the next few weeks; well they may not be stupid, because some of them are connected with my future, my university's career or my private life, and, yeah, they may not be stupid... but maybe they're not as important as I think they are.
You probably think I'm going crazy! I may be, but I'm sure of what I'm saying and I can prove you I'm right...somehow!



"Decision: a choice or judgment that you make after a period of discussion or thought" that's what a decision is according to Longman Dictionary. That is right I suppose, but the point is... do we really need to take that time to make a decision? to make the right decision? I'm not sure! All we do is wondering, thinking, asking for others' opinion, looking for answers, torturing ourselves, killing ourselves...do we really have to do the all of this to take a decision? and that decision is really that important then?

I think that all you need to do is just... go with the flow! Nothing's that hard about that. If we take a decision by following our instinct it will be the decision we really feel, we really want to take, it will be the first one we feel to say "yes" to that comes into our mind. A snap decision can make the difference.
Right or wrong... that's up to us, it doesn't really matter and it's not something we can define when we're thinking about our decision: rights and wrongs come just afterwards, as consequences maybe, but eventually what is labelled as a consequence can be however good. It depends on how we decide to think of it. I personally think that whatever will be a consequence of my decision I won't regret it! I mean, it's my own decision and even if it'll come out to be a wrong one, it won't really matter because it is anyway what I was feeling to do! And have the freedom to decide and do whatever we like, it's the greatest thing we can all have, despite all of those social conventions and fears of being judged!

Talking bout me personally... I used to think waaaaaay to much, but once you learn to follow whatever comes to your heart and mind, everything starts to feel easier, no matterwhat comes next!
And in the last few days I got these funny feelings coming up, and for a moment I got a little bit hysteric... but then I told myself, "hey, don't panic!" and I raelised I needed to sit back, wait, and take my decisions by going with the flow... I'm sure it'll work out perfectly and I'll simply be happy with whatever may come, because whaetever may come will be however what I let into my way. Let's be happy with this all.

Feeling, not thinking... that's The Key!

Goodnight y'all!

Mary,
xXx

Outside... On The Balcony

That's not Romeo&Juliet!

It's just my flat's balcony and it was just me... and my roommate.
After dinner I had this moment... I was a little bit thoughtful and I was seeking some freedom. I opened the window and the air was smelling like spring, it was nice, not too cold, a nice breeze was blowing and the night's sky is always a nice view to enjoy.

This window leads on this balcony, which officially doesn't belong to what we pay for, lol, but you know... climbing over the window to get in this balcony it's easy and with spring here, it's quite hard to resist! So I simply climbed over the window and stepped outside.

That breeze touched my hair and the trees and flowers smell caressed my nose, the sky above was very dark, and the city lights were fireflies flying steady in front of me. I just needed to enjoy the moment, to enjoy this night and enjoy the silence, but someone was there: my roommate, Sabrina. She was inside, doing the dishes and she saw me... she couldn't help it but joining me!

I think she did the best thing ever! We spent some time just talking about what we could see, talking about relaxing, talking bout ourselves, about exploring things in life, talking bout the beautiful world we live in, things we have and things making us feel good.

A half hour talking about nothing and everything, just leaning on the balcony, just looking up, and down and around can make it all... we both felt chilled and fine, and closer than before as well.

The breeze was getting colder and we needed to go back inside... but we will do this all once again.. somehow I cant express the feeling you get from just observing a sleeping city and travelling with your mind........ But all I can say is that everyone should do it, at least once, to get that feeling of freedom and peace we all need!

Love,

Mary
xXx

"Jonny from Scotland"

Yesterday I had a more important blog to post, and little time to post other things... so I thought today I needed to get some things done... and for example had to write down this story.

I met a guy...a guy from Scotland...but let me take you back to the start! It all began few weeks ago...
First of all, on Mondays, when I'm at uni, having classes, I have a lunch break at 1, and me and my friends always go to the same place to buy something to eat and then we go somewhere finding a place to sit and then just eat, have a chat or whatever. Few weeks ago I was in this fast food shop and we were waiting to order a slice of pizza and this guy just came close to where we were to order some food as well.
I noticed he didn't look italian at all, but more like a British guy or whatever. Me and my dearest friend, Steph, both thought he probably was from the UK, and we observed him while he was standing there and ordering a pizza..and he did in a funny italian accent which made him sound lovely and veeeeeeeeery sweet and I was really like *_* "oh my god, he's sooo sweet."

The monday after I saw him again, and the one after again, and so on for a couple of weekd, and you know, everytime he was just in the street going to that fast food shop. I had never met him like face to face or side by side tho!

But then something happened...Yesterday we had an extra free hour for lunch cuz teacher was missing, so we went buying a present for another friend of mine and after that it was just 1pm, so we were like, "ok, lets wait for Chiara and Serena to meet us here and then we all get in getting some food".
My girls arrived and we got in the shop, bought things and then got out. We were on the sidewalk, ready to cross the street when I saw this guy again, coming up our way. So I was like "oh my god, I missed him today in the shop once again! He's so cute!" and my friends started pushing me, telling me like, "hey, just go and meet him, you're eyes are shiny! just go and find a way to hook him up!" and all of those things a group of girls would say!
I said I was not sure and all, I mean, I was divided in two: "go or not go? he's nice and I want to meet him-it's just strange to go and meet someone like that!"; these were the things crossing my mind, because of course it was pretty weird to just go to a guy and say, hey, how you doing? I'm Mary!
But eventually they really pushed me and so I got back in the shop, pretending I had to buy something else, and he was there!

I had my heart beating faster, I was getting a little bit shy and nervous! So I stood there, looking in his direction and then he came closer, trying to get in the cash line, so he could pay and go away, but I was very close to that one, so he thought I had to pay, but I was simply waiting (hihihi) and I looked at him from time to time and probably he felt that and looked back when I put my eyes down... I felt bit shy, and I really couldn't figure out what to do, for a moment I felt quite stupid and wished for my friends to be there to back me up, and I was about just ging out and give up about all! I mean, he was a stranger, a complete stranger! I saw him four times maybe while he was just walking in the street, so what was going on maybe had no sense at all, but eventually I thought "hey, here's a chance, who cares what's gonna happen? Say Yes and go!"...and surprise...we got side to side!
I was cold sweating *lol*
...somehow we looked into each other eyes and we both wanted to say something, like I wanted to tell him he could go first and he wanted to ask me if I had to pay... but we both couldn't speak, then we smiled, had a little giggle, out of nothing, and he told me something in Italian, but I couldn't really understand what he said, so I simply told him, "please, go" and then simply asked him "where you from?" and he replied he was from Scotland, I said "oh wow!", I think I looked pretty amazed and so I took my chance to ask him a couple of questions like his age and what he is doing here in Italy. He answered, smile, told me something bout my english and making comments 'bout his italian, he made a joke, I made a joke and said I could help him out with Italian if he helped me with my English, and all we did was giggling! Then before he left we introduced each other and his name's Jonny... when he shook my hand I felt something!

it was soooooooo weird!!!!

I mean, I've seen him maybe four times including yesterday? And I talked to him just yesterday for the first time for like 2 minutes.

Before leaving he said: "well, I guess I'll see you around soon, bye" ...and left!
My friends saw him going out the shop and I was still inside and one of them after 5 minutes came in to see if I was ok! lol They thought I fainted or smth! I got out the shop like all blushed, shy, but really like...wow! I was super excited and happy!

What I felt was just a funny feeling, nothing more, but it's always nice to meet someone. and it was even nicer to see how that happened! His grey-blue eyes were so nice, and he had a witty look.
Of course nothing's expected to happen and I'm sure nothing will happen! That's reality, that's real talk and this is not a movie.
The only thing I'm wondering is... will I ever see him again?

But the good thing of being so spontaneous and opened the way I am, is that I prefer to wait for a "the moment" to see what happens then and in the meantime all I can think is: no matter if I'll ever meet him again, he was a real short season in my life, on my path. And I won't forget however his eyes, his voice, the way he shook my hand. 5 minutes are nothing, but 5 minutes can make it all... or once again nothing!...and all that will be left will be this post named after him! ;)

Goodnight y'all

Love,

Mary
xXx

A "Yes Girl"

Here's one dedicated straight to someone I really care about, Steph.

Well, it's pretty hard to write a kind of open letter, even cuz this is not exactly and "open letter", it's just a something I want to say, something I want to share with my "twin sister"

A "Yes Girl"... I've been thinking about it... And thought that being a "yes person" can be one of the most precious things we can have and do.
But what does that mean? What's the mening of being a "yes girl"? I learned it means to say "Yes!" to whatever comes up our way, to every chance you get, without thinking too much, to take in, accept, welcome every little thing! You may get the chance to learn karate...just say Yes! and do it; you may find on your way a Chinese language course... just say Yes! and do it; you may have the chance to talk or help someone... just say Yes! and do it!
It does not mean to do things in a silly way, it doesn't mean to do dangerous things, it simply means to not be greedy, not being afraid, to be opened to whatever Life offers, and I know Life can give us alot, many gift and precious things, little things, each day!

So why wasting our time thinking about what to do or about what not to do? Let's go with the flow, let's live it now, let's live for the moment... It's never too late to start dealing with this "Yes system".
I learned and started few months ago, I had a kind of "trial period", and I realised that it was a good way to live life in a different way from what I used to do and it brought me to another level, to another way of enjoying life. Now I'm more chilled, I live better and I simply can smile and laugh twice more than before!!!

If you decided to start with some "yes", then it means you may get closer to this new lifestyle as well, who knows...? And I don't know if you are or not, but for sure, I think you're making a little step in this direction, even if you don't know it yet prbably! And if you are, then... well, I can assure you won't regret it. Let yourself go, let your haird down, do not think too much, don't think... just feel. Start feeling, and when you start feeling, every feeling will simple be the purest one you can touch with your heart, it'll feel spontaneous, new, honest. It'll come easy and you won't have to change your self being, because that's what you have already inside, just by applying a "yes style", you may simply find out it can shine more and more and be shown more and more to all of the others who still can't see that. And all you have to do is... "say yes!"

You won't regret things if you firmly believe that a yes won't hurt. Consequences... yeah, that's what we always think about, but you know what? Consequences will come both if you say no or yes, so what's the point in that? Why living by saying no, by not willing to live as brave, when eventually things may lead to two different, yes, but still maybe hard way? That's in the worst case I suppose... because at least then, if you say Yes!, you can say you enjoyed the ride and had a laugh! ;) I'm sure...

So... I'm not someone who can teach to someone else how to live, but I only try to speak through my expericence and through love and sensitivity, and sharing this pearl I found out myself, was something I felt to do after you told me you were starting off "accepting songs coming up on your MP3 player shuffle playing". This concept perfectly fits in here...accepting without getting hurt.

So what you waiting for?

I love you,

Cip
xXx


Ps. Sorry if I couldn't really express what I wanted to say... I hope you don't take anything wrong...!
Ps2. And then... I'm not the only one claiming that saying YES could bring to good and pleasant things... *whistles* hihihihihi

A Big Surprise

And today it was a very busy and long day... lotta working and studying! All day long actually...
I don't like Saturdays like this, but eventually I had a real nice moment, because I had a great surprise!

I was in my room, with some music on and I was just studying and getting cranky about some Arabic translation, when suddenly I heard a knock on my door; usually my dad does that before coming in and I simply didn't pay much attention, but then once again a knock on the door, so I simply stretched out my arm and lazily opened the door, and when I looked up... I saw there was a guy standing there: my friend, Alberto!

Alberto, who is like a big brother to me, has spent 10 months in Australia! He got finally back!!! Oh my God! I was totally surprised and I couldn't believe it! He was just there standing, leaning on the side of the door, with his sunglasses on, looking at me! The only thing I did was just looking at him for 5 seconds, then I opened my mouth and the only thing I said was "no, that's not possible!", then I closed again the door *lmao* and after 5 seconds I opened it again and looked at him like he was a ghost!

Oh my, I looked quiet stupid, *lol*, but that was funny!
Then my brain finally reacted and I stood up to hug him... and, guys, wow, such a refound and stronger hug! Me and him got closer and closer in the last year, altho he has been knowing me since I was maybe 6 or 7! He's my brother's friend and I grew up with him, but now we got closer and our hug was stronger than ever! We stayed in that hug for a minute or two and I got crying in his arms! It was raelly emotional and I was simply very happy to see him and see he was back and was there to say hello to me and my family! It was lovely!

I couldn't believe it and I couldn't even believe I got crying over the all situation.

Then of course he started telling 'bout his time there, his experiences, and he made see once again how important is just to travel and to throw yourself into situations: when he left he was sad (he had lost his job and had probs with a girl), very negative about everything and he just felt like he didn't know where to go or what to do, kind of lost and then he just put himself into the situation, trying to just see what it could bring. Well, he's totally changed! He sees things differently, he sees that after all that bad moment was just a moment which was not that bad and now he can say he's happy with everything and that he's raedy to face problems and everything else better. It's incredible how travelling can make you feel different, how just having a little bit of faith can help and give a new chance to everything.

I was very happy and he me feel even more how much I just wanna live and go away from here!

It's been a real nice moment... I must admit the weekend started off nicely... or better, I can say my weekend is not great but had some nice moments: yesterday I finally received those envelopes I was waiting for and that put a smile on my face for at least a full hour! And then just the idea of checking everything out for London... wow! I had a doubting moment and a moment of thinking "oh God, what shall we do?", but then I just thought like, "hey! I mean, we're leaving anyway, so who cares??? Let's just be happy and enjoy this mess coming from the setting-up-the-trip-moment and let's get ready to enjoy then the real vacation!", that gives me the ready mood and the right adrenaline to work things out!
Then of course today I got this nice surprise... so... yeah, nice!

And just wating for other things to come...few days ago a friend of mine, a cool friend of mine, Rohan, told me "the word News comes from North, East, West and South". Well, it's perfectly true!!! All you have to do is just stand on the top of the hill and wait for the wind to blow, bringing you that news and then just get ready to catch it!

Good things will always come our way, and we may appreciate them just after catching some bad things as well...

Have a good Saturday everyone,

Love,

Mary
xXx

Tickets to London? Yes, thanks..., Fender or Les Paul? I'll take a Gibson!

At times what looks like a bad day turns into a good, nice one!

It’s been a long one, for sure, but with the right people next to me it was easier and nicer. I had a good time eventually... We are a real nice group of people... shame that in the last two days Chris was not there, she’s sick and I really hope she’ll be fine again as soon as possible (get well soon, lovely girl!!!) .

Somehow it was a positive day! Me and my great friend, Steph, tried to work out and figure out what to do ‘bout our summer in London: it’s very hard for us to find a job over there from here, and we don’t feel like just leaving, get to The City and try to look for a job, we know it wouldn’t be that good and such of a great idea, but then, what shall we do? I got no idea really. But however, we’re still trying to make the right moves and try to find the best way to work everything out, eventually what we really want is just a good looooong vacation in London, but we can’t have it that long... so I suppose we’ll have to be happy with 10 days or so, which is not that bad! We’re a great team and last year in a week we totally turned London inside out and had lotta fun, so it won’t be that hard for us to do it again and I’m sure it’ll be even better because we know each other even better, we’re even closer, we love each other more and we’re simply on the same level on everything! So if last year was amazing, this year is gonna be on top! I’m soooooooooooo sure of that!!!!!!!!

So I simply can’t wait for that! And we’re doing our best to try to save some money over the flight so we can stay there as long as possible! So this afternoon we went to a travel agency to just “have a check” bout flights and so on before taking a look on the Net on our own, and we found some interesting things I believe...so.... yeah, I’m feeling more and more that we gonna go to London and I’m getting thrilled!!!!

Of course still a little bit thoughtful and all ‘bout having a job there which would make it easier and would be something extra to stay in England longer, but hey, I know we can be perfectly happy like this as well!!!

Martin & Lopez on a mission and we gonna achieve it successfully! Damn right!!!!! You can count on that!!! ;)

After that we even went to a guitars’ shop... oh my God! Gibson, Fenders, Les Paul... basses, acoustic guitars, electric guitar, there was anything in there and it was simply great to see all of that! Oh my, I could get lost in there... I loved it!!! We were amazed! Lovely, lovely!!!

Yeah... a real nice day that pictured me things to do and gave me a clearer view on certain things! And now just need to work everything out...happily!

...Nothing’s better than friends, once again! I’ll never get tired of saying, guys!!! Believe me! ;)

Love,
Mary
xXx

Confused... but hey, live it up!

Do you ever get the feeling of just being confused?I do…When you think that finally everything’s going the right way around you and around people you love, then here comes a big grey cloud… It’s something that happens “suddenly”, out of nothing, you can’t see it coming and you can’t control it, you may feel it, but you cannot help it: you gotta stand there and watch it, and just after you realised what it is ‘bout, then you can try to take action.

That’s life, I mean, it happens very often, and you wonder why… I guess it’s just a way to make us stronger and put us into challenge. Being competitive it’s a way to improve yourself, to push yourself to the limit, but the real point is: how much can you dare? How much you want to be pushed to the limit? That’s what makes the difference. That’s what makes you a winner or a loser, and by loser I simply mean someone who’s not willing to try hard enough to get what he want. Can you handle a challenge, a competition? Life’s all about that, even when you don’t know it. If something difficult is coming up your way, then don’t be scared, get ready, warm up and get on that fucking boxing ring and fight. We always need to fight to get what we want, to change a status, to change our life, our mood, our position, our condition, are you strong enough to do that? Are you tough enough to handle it? everyone can change things, but just a few are brave enough to do it, and I’m sure everyone of us wants to be among those few, because it may be a steep rise, but it’ll bring you to a sense of satisfaction and it’ll make you feel proud of yourself... All you have to do is try, why don’t you? Just for once, or twice, it’s just very important to try. Let your hair down and see what happens, the best thing is you won’t regret it.
Is this the right mood and the right way to face that big cloud coming up? I think so... or at least is one of the million ways you can possibly do that.


The real, I mean, my own real confused status comes when somehow we bring that cloud ourselves. When we want that cloud to be there cuz we need it. Everyone knows life is not easy, why shall we make it even harder? There’s no point in that I suppose, that’s what we should try to understand and learn and avoid. I get confused if I see that suddenly I’m seeking something that there’s no need to get desperate over, isn’t that my fault? Yes, it is. But what gets me even more confused is the fact that then at times I don’t even want to try to just move that cloud away. Altho I do believe that there can always be a fresh wind coming up my way to blow that cloud away and if we listen, or better, feel carefully, then we’ll find out there’s more than just some fresh air, much more that can help us take that cloud away and bring back the sun. Just feel then and just try to see the sunny side of life... that’s the best side, the side where you can have fun even when you don’t have all you want or need!

But hey, here comes a new day! It’s 7.55AM and that’s a new beginning and I’m sure we’re all willing to have a real good day, full of laughs and happiness... or at least with no bad things in it! So let’s work it out, let’s not be lazy and let’s not be sad... why shall we? C’mon! Let’s enjoy life!
Just put yourself in new situations, in what you don’t know, in what you know, alone, by yourself, with others, just try it, give it a shot, who cares eventually what’s gonna come out? If it’s good, then it’s perfectly fine, if it’s not, then okay, it was an experience!

Have a good y’all!

Love,
Mary
xXx