Finally Her Birthday was here!

Here I go again, folks!

I'm a couple of days late in posting this, but I've been a little bit busy in the last few days (studying, exams and such).

Well then, Happy Belated Birthday to my girl Steph! ^^

I had a blast! I enjoyed the day and I hope she did as much as I did! Her Birthday was on the 25th of May. So just two days ago.

We had an exam in the noon and when we were done with that we had to go to her house for a little party. Well, I wasn't really caring bout that exam, I was more focused on the evening and all.
I was so in a rush and hurry and worried about presents and such that I left my mobiles home and I just realised that when we were almost at the bus stop (20 minutes walking away from my house) and had to go all the way back! I felt soooooooooo bad about it!!! We missed the bus of course, which was the last one of the day and it was bit messy to go home to Steph's house, but at least her dad came to pick us up and we made it!
I had fun, laughed and had a good evening with my lovely girls!

I was veeeeeeeery happy about Steph and about everything around the birthday itself.
She was pretty surprised and shocked by presents we gave her. And that was the part I loved the most!!!! Her face was soooooooo funny to see!!! She was surprised, happy, shocked, even more shocked and it was just a crescendo of emotions and reactions!

After 5 months! I've been working 5 months to get all those things for her and I had to keep the secret and all... well, it wasn't easy!!! But eventually I made it and it was defenitely worthy!!! So that made me very happy!
And then a good night with friends always make you forget anything else!

I think I should post pictures of her with her presents if she allows me!!! Hehehehehe

But had a real good time and then always good to have some time over her house, sleepover and all. We laughed, shared a tear and felt once again closer! Always kills me!

Yes yes, something I was waiting for soooo hard and it came and went exactly the way I expected it, and I'm sure I'll never forget it!

^^

Mary,
xXx

Just by chance...

It’s really amazing to see how things work in life!

Destiny exists, I do believe in it, but we’re in control! That’s for sure... We have one or two or three or more ways to make that destiny coming true, and we decide to take a path and walk it, and that’s how we make our own destiny.

But it is very funny to see how we get chances leading us to that “crossroad” we need to bear.

I feel amused by all I see and I think lately I did a couple of crazy things leading me to some very positive situations that I enjoy and that I like to be in now.

Things may go different than what we expect and maybe happens that "a something" that it's supposed to go in a certain way then goes totally the opposite giving us the greatest time ever!

Happened to me in the last few days and I feel very happy about it. I think life suddenly wanted to shake me up and it did a good job for sure.
Meeting someone new can always bring some fresh air, and when that one is somehow special... that's even better!

I can't totally explian somehow the way that I'm feeling, but I'm really hyper! I feel excited, happy, and filled with energy and eagerness! That's good that's good, that's what I like!
And with this lovely weather making me think of summer... it can't be any better!

Funny how a game or a simple curiousity turns out to be way more than "meets the eye" hehehehehe

Love,

Mary
xXx

Coffee 'n' Tell

After we had the tickets, me and Chris decided to go for a coffee, just having a chat about the moment. We wanted to call Steph but we couldn't! We wanted to tell the whole world we had tickets, we were feeling hyper... and damn, it's true! we're leaving!!!!!!!!

Just feeling purely happy it's something great. And it's good to have people to share this happiness with, andthe three of us make it simply great! and possible!

I don't even feel like eating!

However... me and Chris went for a coffee and we just sat in a cafè, drinking coffee and espressino and we started chatting about London, about how to organise everything and how me and Steph managed everything last year. I even told her how the idea of going to London last summer was born...

and thats how we got to talk about everything, bout last year, I opened up to her and told her everything bout my last year in the blues, with ups and downs, and how I made it through eventually becoming what I am now.
She started to open up as well. She listened to my words, shared my all, and she shared some of her feelings. We got to know bits of each other we probably couldn't totally expect.

I loved chatting with her, and we spent almost two hours just talking bout everything, bout ourselves, bout life, things, events changing us and we felt a good connection. She's a lovely girl and she's a little star as well... once again I found someone who can shine soo brightly, and wow, once again she's by my side.

I told her things that no-one knows apart from Steph, and I think she did likewise, which I suppose brought us closer and to another level.

People wouldn't believe that a ticket to London can make up the all of this... but I know this is just the beginning, a little start. A step to bring me and her closer, Steph and her closer, me and Steph even closer.

We gonna found out much and much more about each other and I'm sure we'll discover more about ourselves as well... this trip to London is going to help us, and is going to change us, improve us, let us understand and figure out all we can't by now... I'm sure!

And I simply can't wait for it!

I felt sooooo good in being with Chris and I just want to tell her she knows she can rely on me for whatever she needs and whenever she needs someone to talk to!

We can stand by each other and grow old in little things together... you kow you can count on me... and I'm sure, you can count on Steph as well!

Thanks for listening to me! and for sharing part of you, and welcoming part of me.

Loooooooooove you, Chrissy girl!!!

Mary,
xXx

Tickets to London!!!

This morning I woke up pretty early, although last night I went to bed quite late because of me just being on the pc, being lazy; I woke up before my alarm could actually go off... I was feeling a little bit restless in my bed, during my sleep, so I just thought, “ok, I need to get up”.

Opened my window... it was showering and the sky was grey... “oh well, I really need to be in a great mood today to get over this weather”, that’s what I told myself and I headed off to the kitchen. I was not even feeling hungry. So I just sat watching the empty wall in front of me. Then I thought, “ok, need to check my mail”. So I headed back to m room an turned off my laptop, then grabbed it and brought it to the kitchen. So I sat, still with a really sleepy face. I just wanted to check a couple of “answers” I was waiting for with impatience.

Opened my mail inbox... and there it goes! My face lighted up and I swear I was awake by then! Finally the hotel in London replied to our reservation enquiry! They have a free room for us (well , I mean, they had to have it! We’re sooooooo on time!!!!! *lol*) and it’s perfectly right for us and matches what we wanted! I got sooooo thrilled!!! I texted my lovely girls, Steph and Chris and I was excited about the news... it meant that we could go and book for real that ticket to London!

Chris replied as first and she told me she was ready to come as soon as she could borrow her father’s car, so that we could go and pay to get tickets. She was excited as well, and we all thought it was not possible he was going to reply just right before we needed to cancel or confirm our reservation! But he did and we couldn’t believe it! Steph replied later and she said she was happy as well and that she was sure they were going not to disappoint us! So she told me to just go and pay!

I waited for Chris while doing some studying and getting ready!

I can’t really study... I’m sooo excited... and damn, I need to wait 2 months before leaving!!!!!!

My day started off greatly!

I couldn’t have any better news! I even had another reply I was waiting for... *cough cough* and everything started to look brighter!
The sun even came out and the weather feels warmer!
Can’t wait!!!!!!!

Me and Chris headed off to the travel agency and the guy of course remembered us and we confirmed our reservation, paid and just got out of it with the tickets in our hands!!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!! We told Steph and we wanted to call her... we just wanted to tell everyone we had the tickets with us!!!!

Feels lovely and great and I can’t wait for this experience to happen!

Last year was me and Steph, and this time Chris is with us as well, I’m sure is going to be twice better!

Ahhhhhhhh, can’t control myself at the moment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to yeeeeeeeell!!!!

I’m very happy!!!!

Love,
Mary
xXx

Decisions

It's late over here and I'm not gonna put up a whole philosophical topic...my brain cannot handle it, but I was just thinking randomly about things when this image came into my mind and I had to find it on the Net... and that's how I started thiking over "decisions".



Our life's made up of decisions. Which way to go? Left or Right? I don't know... the question may sounds so hard and the answer may seem even harder, but you know... I was just sitting here looking at the empty space thinking bout how many stupid decisions I need to take in the next few weeks; well they may not be stupid, because some of them are connected with my future, my university's career or my private life, and, yeah, they may not be stupid... but maybe they're not as important as I think they are.
You probably think I'm going crazy! I may be, but I'm sure of what I'm saying and I can prove you I'm right...somehow!



"Decision: a choice or judgment that you make after a period of discussion or thought" that's what a decision is according to Longman Dictionary. That is right I suppose, but the point is... do we really need to take that time to make a decision? to make the right decision? I'm not sure! All we do is wondering, thinking, asking for others' opinion, looking for answers, torturing ourselves, killing ourselves...do we really have to do the all of this to take a decision? and that decision is really that important then?

I think that all you need to do is just... go with the flow! Nothing's that hard about that. If we take a decision by following our instinct it will be the decision we really feel, we really want to take, it will be the first one we feel to say "yes" to that comes into our mind. A snap decision can make the difference.
Right or wrong... that's up to us, it doesn't really matter and it's not something we can define when we're thinking about our decision: rights and wrongs come just afterwards, as consequences maybe, but eventually what is labelled as a consequence can be however good. It depends on how we decide to think of it. I personally think that whatever will be a consequence of my decision I won't regret it! I mean, it's my own decision and even if it'll come out to be a wrong one, it won't really matter because it is anyway what I was feeling to do! And have the freedom to decide and do whatever we like, it's the greatest thing we can all have, despite all of those social conventions and fears of being judged!

Talking bout me personally... I used to think waaaaaay to much, but once you learn to follow whatever comes to your heart and mind, everything starts to feel easier, no matterwhat comes next!
And in the last few days I got these funny feelings coming up, and for a moment I got a little bit hysteric... but then I told myself, "hey, don't panic!" and I raelised I needed to sit back, wait, and take my decisions by going with the flow... I'm sure it'll work out perfectly and I'll simply be happy with whatever may come, because whaetever may come will be however what I let into my way. Let's be happy with this all.

Feeling, not thinking... that's The Key!

Goodnight y'all!

Mary,
xXx

Outside... On The Balcony

That's not Romeo&Juliet!

It's just my flat's balcony and it was just me... and my roommate.
After dinner I had this moment... I was a little bit thoughtful and I was seeking some freedom. I opened the window and the air was smelling like spring, it was nice, not too cold, a nice breeze was blowing and the night's sky is always a nice view to enjoy.

This window leads on this balcony, which officially doesn't belong to what we pay for, lol, but you know... climbing over the window to get in this balcony it's easy and with spring here, it's quite hard to resist! So I simply climbed over the window and stepped outside.

That breeze touched my hair and the trees and flowers smell caressed my nose, the sky above was very dark, and the city lights were fireflies flying steady in front of me. I just needed to enjoy the moment, to enjoy this night and enjoy the silence, but someone was there: my roommate, Sabrina. She was inside, doing the dishes and she saw me... she couldn't help it but joining me!

I think she did the best thing ever! We spent some time just talking about what we could see, talking about relaxing, talking bout ourselves, about exploring things in life, talking bout the beautiful world we live in, things we have and things making us feel good.

A half hour talking about nothing and everything, just leaning on the balcony, just looking up, and down and around can make it all... we both felt chilled and fine, and closer than before as well.

The breeze was getting colder and we needed to go back inside... but we will do this all once again.. somehow I cant express the feeling you get from just observing a sleeping city and travelling with your mind........ But all I can say is that everyone should do it, at least once, to get that feeling of freedom and peace we all need!

Love,

Mary
xXx

"Jonny from Scotland"

Yesterday I had a more important blog to post, and little time to post other things... so I thought today I needed to get some things done... and for example had to write down this story.

I met a guy...a guy from Scotland...but let me take you back to the start! It all began few weeks ago...
First of all, on Mondays, when I'm at uni, having classes, I have a lunch break at 1, and me and my friends always go to the same place to buy something to eat and then we go somewhere finding a place to sit and then just eat, have a chat or whatever. Few weeks ago I was in this fast food shop and we were waiting to order a slice of pizza and this guy just came close to where we were to order some food as well.
I noticed he didn't look italian at all, but more like a British guy or whatever. Me and my dearest friend, Steph, both thought he probably was from the UK, and we observed him while he was standing there and ordering a pizza..and he did in a funny italian accent which made him sound lovely and veeeeeeeeery sweet and I was really like *_* "oh my god, he's sooo sweet."

The monday after I saw him again, and the one after again, and so on for a couple of weekd, and you know, everytime he was just in the street going to that fast food shop. I had never met him like face to face or side by side tho!

But then something happened...Yesterday we had an extra free hour for lunch cuz teacher was missing, so we went buying a present for another friend of mine and after that it was just 1pm, so we were like, "ok, lets wait for Chiara and Serena to meet us here and then we all get in getting some food".
My girls arrived and we got in the shop, bought things and then got out. We were on the sidewalk, ready to cross the street when I saw this guy again, coming up our way. So I was like "oh my god, I missed him today in the shop once again! He's so cute!" and my friends started pushing me, telling me like, "hey, just go and meet him, you're eyes are shiny! just go and find a way to hook him up!" and all of those things a group of girls would say!
I said I was not sure and all, I mean, I was divided in two: "go or not go? he's nice and I want to meet him-it's just strange to go and meet someone like that!"; these were the things crossing my mind, because of course it was pretty weird to just go to a guy and say, hey, how you doing? I'm Mary!
But eventually they really pushed me and so I got back in the shop, pretending I had to buy something else, and he was there!

I had my heart beating faster, I was getting a little bit shy and nervous! So I stood there, looking in his direction and then he came closer, trying to get in the cash line, so he could pay and go away, but I was very close to that one, so he thought I had to pay, but I was simply waiting (hihihi) and I looked at him from time to time and probably he felt that and looked back when I put my eyes down... I felt bit shy, and I really couldn't figure out what to do, for a moment I felt quite stupid and wished for my friends to be there to back me up, and I was about just ging out and give up about all! I mean, he was a stranger, a complete stranger! I saw him four times maybe while he was just walking in the street, so what was going on maybe had no sense at all, but eventually I thought "hey, here's a chance, who cares what's gonna happen? Say Yes and go!"...and surprise...we got side to side!
I was cold sweating *lol*
...somehow we looked into each other eyes and we both wanted to say something, like I wanted to tell him he could go first and he wanted to ask me if I had to pay... but we both couldn't speak, then we smiled, had a little giggle, out of nothing, and he told me something in Italian, but I couldn't really understand what he said, so I simply told him, "please, go" and then simply asked him "where you from?" and he replied he was from Scotland, I said "oh wow!", I think I looked pretty amazed and so I took my chance to ask him a couple of questions like his age and what he is doing here in Italy. He answered, smile, told me something bout my english and making comments 'bout his italian, he made a joke, I made a joke and said I could help him out with Italian if he helped me with my English, and all we did was giggling! Then before he left we introduced each other and his name's Jonny... when he shook my hand I felt something!

it was soooooooo weird!!!!

I mean, I've seen him maybe four times including yesterday? And I talked to him just yesterday for the first time for like 2 minutes.

Before leaving he said: "well, I guess I'll see you around soon, bye" ...and left!
My friends saw him going out the shop and I was still inside and one of them after 5 minutes came in to see if I was ok! lol They thought I fainted or smth! I got out the shop like all blushed, shy, but really like...wow! I was super excited and happy!

What I felt was just a funny feeling, nothing more, but it's always nice to meet someone. and it was even nicer to see how that happened! His grey-blue eyes were so nice, and he had a witty look.
Of course nothing's expected to happen and I'm sure nothing will happen! That's reality, that's real talk and this is not a movie.
The only thing I'm wondering is... will I ever see him again?

But the good thing of being so spontaneous and opened the way I am, is that I prefer to wait for a "the moment" to see what happens then and in the meantime all I can think is: no matter if I'll ever meet him again, he was a real short season in my life, on my path. And I won't forget however his eyes, his voice, the way he shook my hand. 5 minutes are nothing, but 5 minutes can make it all... or once again nothing!...and all that will be left will be this post named after him! ;)

Goodnight y'all

Love,

Mary
xXx